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[22 Feb 2006|07:33am] |
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It just came to me on the way home this morning. I'm actually scared to die for once in my life. I have a good life now. I have a great guy who loves me and wants to have a family and a life with me. For once I think if things ended now than it would be too soon. He gives me wings. He makes me believe in myself...my personality...my looks...and so much more. Knowing the way he feels about me makes me feel like a whole new person inside and out. I wouldnt trade this for anything in the world. He is wonderful to me and a great influence in my life. I know I wouldnt be half as happy or doing half as good right now if it wasn't for him being in my life.
Thank you baby.
Britt
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[21 Feb 2006|03:51am] |
Nothing has really happened lately. Jimmy and I have layed around the house and slept mostly. I talked to Josh tonight and it seemed like he was really depressed. He didn't say nothing it was just the tone of voice he used when he was talking to me. Maybe Im just a lil worried. I have my app. tomorrow which Im a lil worried about too. Im not worried about it being gone...because I have a good dr. but Im worried that "rust-bucket" done some damage when he decided to act stupid. I dont hurt or nothing so maybe I will get lucky. Jimmy is going with me tomorrow. He said he wanted to go and get outta the house some. haha. We havent really left the house lately. We blew our money so we've been home bound which honestly isnt that bad since we are together. pay day will be nice though.
Im a lil confused right now. Jimmy is buying me a jack russell puppy and Im not sure if I want it. See mom and him said I have to get rid of two dogs to have my jack. meaning my two hound dogs. I dont mind getting rid of Buddy. I dont want Annie to end up being put down though just because I wanted a different puppy. Annie gets into alot of stuff and tears a lot of stuff up but she's a sweet dog and she's really taken to me. So Im thinking about telling him I dont want the puppy so I dont have to take a chance of Annie being killed. I dont know Im going to talk it over with him today. Maybe we can find an alternative.
We also have been talking about day shift some lately too. I like the idea because we would be living a more society normal life. Then again I dont because we'd both be losing the people we're used to working with, some money, and Mike and Jamie. I guess everything has its ups and downs.
So yeppers. I think Im going to get offa here for now. I think I have definetly over written for the night considering I was just planning on a paragraph. haha.
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Brittany
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| Jimmy : You're My Passion For Life |
[16 Feb 2006|10:51pm] |
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I decided to change journals. I had had that one since Dec. of 2004 atleast. Alot of things have changed since then so it didn't make sense to keep a journal of bad memories and things I want to forget happened. Like Rusty. I'm not miserable with my life anymore. I'm a happy person and I'm happy with my life to the fullest extent. Negative vibes stay away...fair warning you can't hurt me.
I've been talking to Jimmy going on four months now. We've been dating/living together for a month now. We both agree without a doubt that we are soul mates. We believe we can make it through anything simply because we know we were put on this earth for each other. I thank GOD above everyday that he lead me to him and gave me the ability to see what was wrong in my life and what my life could be. I smile insanely now. haha. I'm hardly ever grouchy (unless Im sleepy) or in a bad mood. I don't have panic attacks anymore. I'm just content and feel more loved than I ever had before. My mom told me when I first split with Rusty to give it time and that I may just find someone at Walmart that steals my heart. I should've listened to her because somewhere in a cosmic-mother-way she knew. She knew what was going to happen if I didn't let Rusty drag me down.
Rusty and I have nothing to do with each other anymore. Scary how someone could spend 9 months in your life and you can make then disappear. I don't hurt. I don't miss him. I have nothing at all left for him. As I tried to tell him...he'd already killed everything I had. I don't wonder who he's seeing or want to know anything about his life. I just want his stuff out of my house...and soon before I throw it into my yard and it becomes Duke's and Lexi"s bed. lol.
For Valentine's Day we ran around till 10 p.m. We didnt plan to but to get my Mudslide we had to get his cousin, Jen, because he didnt have his ID with him. So we ended up taking her to Coeburn and then seeing some more people and running them around a little. We came back home...got seriously too fucked up. haha. Then I ran him outta the bedroom for his surprise. I had bought a cute pink teddy for him....put pink rose petals all over the bed...bought him a pretty pink card...and lit candles all over the room. He absolutly loved it. So yeah, our night ended around 4 a.m. haha. (SmileS!) He got me so much stuff for Valentine's Day that it was stupid. A huge teddy bear, a four leaf clover necklace, a singing hampster, two cards, roses, an angel fountain, a pink purse, and my scrapebook. I'm crazy for the boy as you can tell he is fantastic to me. lol.
Right now he's thinking of going to work with his cousin and leaving Walmart. If he does that then he doesnt want me to work anymore. haha. I figured after I see how my app. next Tuesday goes that I may come off of my shot in April. It will still take awhile for anything to happen but it will be a start. We're also planning on getting married sometime this summer. We say July 22 but it really depends when he gets his divorce from crazy bitch, Becky.
Well, I believe this is good for a starting entry. Don't worry or expect it. All my entries will not be this long I just haven't had anyway of writing lately and there's a lot of stuff I dont want to forget.
Brittany*
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